Winter Blues
This has by far been the most difficult winter. Starting to train as a teacher, I get up in the dark, spend the day in school, and then come home in the dark. I feel like daylight starts to fade before it's even started. Moving to a working lifestyle means that days can feel quite empty. You simply wake up, work, come home and count down till you go to bed to start it all again the next day. Personally, I've been finding this quite heavy. I feel sad in the evenings, and sometimes catch myself asking questions like 'what is the point of life'? If this is it, then what is the point. My joy has started to fade away. As a Christian, this is hard to face. I feel guilty. I know the scriptural truths, that my joy is unfading because of salvation found in Christ, but in my head I feel like this should come with a heavy serving of earthly happiness. I find myself in conflict with the voice in my head, telling myself that as a Christian I should always feel content, then feeling
